I knew that it was inevitable, but I really did think…

If you’ve read off and on here on my blog then you know that I’m in the middle of looking for a job. A career change, actually. In September 2010 the company I currently work for, Waggin’ Train was purchased by Nestle Purina PetCare… and the transition began.

I really did think that after my last chat on the topic, a position would open up for me to move into, or interview for and everything would be OK. Well, here I am, the day before Thanksgiving, and the search still continues.

Freaking job… your timing sucks!

That empty, bottom of the pit feeling I had a while ago… well, it has sunk as low as it can, and feels worse everyday. Looking for a job during the Holidays is horrible. And stressful.

Being so close to the final date, with no job waiting for me January 1st, we’re pulling all of our resources, which are basically non-existent, as a ‘just in case’.

We also had the talk with our kids. Not that talk (already done), but the talk to be truthful with our two kids about the road bump ahead of us. We explained that this Christmas would definitely not be like past Christmases. And, we explained that some of the activities they are apart of might have to cease for awhile.

They understand. Our fingers are crossed! Positive thoughts on the job front.

So, here is to celebrating a new job on New Year’s Eve and a wonderful 2012!

Life keeps going even if everything around it changes. I’m sure over the next few months there will be a ton of changes going on. The biggest one – a job search. Really? So close to the end of the year? Holidays?

Frustration.

When the company I work for was purchased in September 2010, I was told it would be work as usual. My understanding — we would still be handling the company brand – keep the wheels turning, so to speak. Well, then in August there was that letter. It sealed the deal for me, I realized then that I would most likely be without a job soon.

Finally I got tired of not really knowing and being in the dark on a few things, so I opened my mouth and asked. And what I expected, was the answer… no position to go to, transition your current position over, last day December 31st.

You know that sinking feeling you get in the pit of your stomach? Yep, me!

So many things are rattling through my head — family, bills, Holidays, already so much family loss… this is the sour icing on top of an already tart cake. Mentally, with everything that has been going on this year, I’m just not in a place to begin a job search, again.

But, here I go.

Just when I begin to tread again, the deep end begins to pull me under. But, I never shy away from a challenge!

Now, into the wild!  

I’ve been MIA. Writing over these past few weeks has had to take a backseat to IRL happenings. Overwhelmingly busy is where I‘ve been treading these past few weeks. I wish I could say my break was due to a hot new social media job, or I won the lottery and was breaking in the spending habit, but unfortunately it wasn’t for excitement or glamour, it was for family and the loss of a great man.

On June 29th my Father-in-law lost his battle with throat cancer.

After losing my own father to cancer when I was 16, my FIL became the closest to a father I had in a long time when my husband and I married. He was the voice of reason when everyone else was nuts and he was definitely the perfect person in my children’s eyes. He was Poppy and my kids LOVED him. It was the hardest thing in the world to wake them up at  2:48 AM to tell them that he had passed.

We cried. We laughed. We shared stories. We watched the stars – one of his favorite things to do with the kids. We cried some more. My daughter, with her whole 10 years of experience, expressed how happy she was that Poppy could finally smile again. That he was better. Trust me, it had been a very long time since we had seen him smile.

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